Done

I'm so ready to be done with summer. Usually Summer is my favorite season of the year. Summer barbeques, visiting friends, camping, spending large amounts of time outside, swimming or splashing in water, fresh fruit...

But this Summer is different. I've spent way too much time in my car. NO time splashing or playing in water. Barely any barbeques because we have no money for food. The only time we visit with anyone seems to be when I'm trying to distract the kids, or when I'm dropping them off or picking them up so I can deal with Brian's medical stuff. We have, at least, had a LOT of fresh fruit. The kids and I are in fruit heaven! I am shocked at the amount of blueberries we eat in a day. A dear friend of mine has invited us over a few times and we eat their delicious blueberries right off the bush. She sends us home with blueberries and we feast on them for days (usually resulting in a few tummy aches but oh-so-worth it!!)

It's been an adjustment having Brian home with us. We're happy to have him home, of course, but it means constant anxiety for me. I don't like having to be the one keeping tabs on him and making sure he's doing okay. It was much more peaceful to have him taken care of at the hospital (is that horrible?) He looks awful today. His feet are at least twice, if not three times, their size. He winces with every step while trying to pretend it doesn't bother him. So he spends a lot of time sitting with his feet up and that's the way it has to be. Try explaining that to the kids!

I may or may not be going crazy. Lack of sleep, maybe.

I have nothing else of interest to say. Sorry my posts have been sounding discouraged lately - but that's just where I'm at right now! We're in a very tough spot, and I'm trying to figure out how to put the pieces back together and trying to regain some sanity for the sake of my family. I feel pulled in all kinds of directions.