I yawn because I'm tired. I'm tired because this learning curve is getting the best of me. Learning curve? Yes. I'm learning all kinds of things right now. What exactly Brian's disease means, and what forms of treatment are there in other parts of the world, what kinds of natural remedies treat symptoms he has and what are the best DIRECT forms of getting the nutrition he needs, how to cook these "different" foods (and how to afford them on said limited budget!), how to be the "man of the house" when Brian is sick (for example, I tried to learn how to run our rickety old lawn mower last week. Tried and failed, I might add). It's frustrating and overwhelming some days. Days like today I'm just completely tired out.
So the blog has kinda been one of the balls that has been dropped, obviously. A LOT has been dropped. I'm no longer a good sister, a good friend, or a good daughter. Not that I ever claimed to be perfect in the first place. I've forgotten birthdays. I even (almost) forgot Koby's Well, I was a day late. ON his birthday it took a school friend to remind me that it wasn't the NEXT day, it was TODAY! Well, I threw something together last minute and I don't think he noticed. Poor little neglected man...
Well. There you have it. A post!
you ARE a good sister, daughter, friend ... and an INCREDIBLY DEDICATED wife and mother. Looking forward to our visit when the boys are done preschool.
ReplyDeleteYou ARE a good friend - don't ever think otherwise! and a great mom! I think you've done amazingly well with all that life has thrown your way... a lot better than some of us would have done. My hat is off to you - I pray that God will continually surround you with people that will be willing to help out as needed and bless you in unexpected ways.... and when you're feeling overwhealmed, don't be afraid to ask for help. (I'm pretty sure Lyle would have jumped at the chance to come fiddle with your lawnmover and do your lawn) Much love my friend ♥
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